False Alarm

So there is a first for everything. Friday, I was feeling really sore down under. I told Grandma Sue and Aunt Amy about it and they got anxious and told me to call my dr. I was not having very many contractions at all but they still insisted that I call my dr. So, I spoke with the phone nurse which happened to be my regular nurse (which was nice) told her everything and she said she would ask Dr Cote. He said go to the hospital to get everything checked out.

In my heart, I KNEW it wasn't the day for Anna to be born but everyone was kind of freaking out so I thought I better get checked, just in case. We dropped the kids off at the house and headed to the hospital. Me, daddy, Aunt Amy, and Grandma Sue. I said, let's leave bags and stuff in the car and get it if we need it. I felt silly going in, I really thought they would laugh at me.

Everyone was nice and got checked in and put in a room. Nurse came and check me and said I was the same as I was at my last dr apt. I was 3 dilated and 75% effaced. So she said she would page my dr and ask what he wanted me to do. Nurse came back and said he wanted me to walk for an hour and then get checked again. So I walked the halls for almost an hour and half because they got busy.

A new nurse came in and checked me. She said she could understand why I felt all the pressure. She said the head was really low. She said the head was lower than what the first nurse marked and I was 80% effaced and almost a 4 dilated. So she hooked me up to monitor to see how many contractions I was having. I had some but not tons (which I knew this). She called Dr Cote and he said to walk another hour. UGHHHH I was tired of walking. My back hurt and my thighs were numb at times.

So Amy and I walked the halls yet again. It was so boring and I was getting tired of people staring at me. I got checked again about an hour and a half later and there was no change. =(
Nurse called dr and he said to go home because he knew I wanted a natural, fast labor. Nurse, Heidi was so disappointed. She wanted me to stay. She was so sweet and was so understanding. She said it was fine and better to be safe than sorry.

I forgot to mention at first the ward was very slow but then it started raining and turned into a big storm. The unit got filled up very quickly. They had 2 C-sections back to back and maybe a 3rd one on the way. That is not want I wanted to I was fine to wait.

I was tired more than anything and ready to go home. We picked up your siblings because they were still awake which is surprising at 11:30 at night.

All in all I should have followed by gut feeling and just relaxed at home. But oh, well its a memory.

37 wk Dr apt

No surprise I didn't change. I am still 3 dilated. However, I am 75% effaced and the head is really low. I knew that from all the pressure I have had. Heartbeat was 170 bpm. She was moving around and was laying sideways. Dr thought that was funny. I told him she likes to do that a lot.

He said I could go any time but not to go this weekend since he is off. LOL However, he said one of his partners would take good care of me. I laughed and said I would see him on Wednesday ( my next apt). 126 3/4

Having "One" of those days

I am so frazzled today. I am trying to stay sane but for some reason, I just can't.

Maybe its the weather-rainy and cloudy?
Maybe its your siblings (for some reasons are driving me crazy)?
Maybe its because I am carrying extra weight and haven't slept good (plus Julia wants to get up at 5:30 am)?
Maybe its because I had a massive leg cramp early this morning and it still is sore?
Maybe its the massive pressure that feel like I am about to drop a bowling ball out of my crotch?

I keep reminding myself NOT much longer. But then I get kinda teared up. Ugh the hormones are killing me.

Middle name debate continues

So I think its narrowed down to 3; Joy (Daddy's fav), Noelle (Mommy's fav) and Catherine/Katherine/Kathryn. Unless something just pops in out of no where. I don't hate Joy but I don't love it and that's how Jeremy feels about Noelle.

We don't agree on how to spell Catherine/Katherine/Kathryn LOL. Hence me writing it differently.

Hmmmm...What will it be?

Dr check

So I wasn't surprised that I didn't change. I am still at a 3. I think she is going to follow Julia. It would have been nicer if she would have taken after Caleb. Oh, well its not much longer.

Everything else is fine other than measuring small, which doesn't alarm me. But dr wants to keep tabs on. Heart beat was 162 bpm.

Went to Babies R Us and bought the last 2 things I needed. Earlier in the week I got the other necessities. All I have left to do is pack the bag. 123 3/4

36 wks and counting down :)

On Friday, we got Anna's coming home outfit. Goodness! It's hard to find any dresses in newborn size or I should even add any cute dresses. We had to settle on a 0-3 month dress. Grandma, Sue followed tradition and bought it. We even got her first little sister shirt. =)

My lower back has been really hurting especially later in the day. Also I am nauseous several times a day. YUCK!

I also started getting a stuffy nose again. And started my nightly insomnia. Which doesn't help when Julia has been waking me up at 6:30 this past week. Oh, well I keep saying its just preparing me for my schedule with Anna.

Well, I think we have a middle name narrowed down to 3 but who knows if that will stay. Me and Jeremy are getting sick of going over names. For some reason we are just having a hard time this time around. We will probably just decide after she is born.

Last Ultrasound /Dr apt

I could barely wait for today to come. I had the ultrasound first. Did all the measurements and checked on everything. Measuring a week behind (which is normal for me) and baby weighing around 5 pounds. The tech kept saying how scrunched Anna was. Great news is the Anna is head down (which I already knew because when Anna got the hiccups they seemed low). I was right that her legs and arms are on my left side. I always get jabs and big movements on my left side. Heartbeat was 158 bpm.

Tech double checked and yep, she is still a girl. =) Has some peach fuzz for hair on her head. She is still a stinker and wouldn't let us get a good picture of her face. She kept putting her hand or her arm over her face.

Next was my dr apt. I got my strep B test and then a vaginal check. I am 3 dilated. :) I was the same with Caleb and Julia around this time. I am getting excited that it is getting closer and glad my body is moving into the right direction.

I thought I had dilated a bit because last week there was times I sat down that I needed to readjust and sit down again because it didn't feel right. I know that sounds funny but its true.
I am going to the bathroom more and more. I get really hungry but then I can't eat that much because I feel I don't have that much room.

The whole family toured Bergan Mercy Hospital on Sunday. It is brand new and nice but kinda sad that isn't not familiar. That is where I birthed my other 3. I didn't know if we should choose Bergan again or go to Lakeside because it is closer to where we live now.

So today, I asked Dr Cote, What he thought about the hospitals. He told me the major difference was the level 3 NICU at Bergan and Lakeside had a level 2 but I didn't need the higher level since I was 35 wks. He really wants to be at the delivery so he suggested I go to whichever hospital is closer on what day he is at that particular office.

After the apt, my mom and I toured the Lakeside Hospital. It was nice and felt like Bergan but on a much smaller scale and it is a lot closer to home. Jeremy/daddy is nervous that we won't make it to the hospital. I am glad I toured both and feel comfortable if I had to deliver at either one.

I also like that the hospitals have change their policy and leave the baby in the room. They no longer take the baby out of the room to bath it and give it shots right away. They wait several hours now. Yea!!!

I need to get clothes, blankets and such out and washed. I can't believe in a month Anna will be here. 124 1/2

Starting to get excited....

I just made dr appointments for the next several weeks (up until week 38). I didn't make a week 39 appointment because I usually end up cancelling it. Hopefully I didn't jinx myself by not making one this time around.

Feeling big but doing well. Making lots of trips to the bathroom again. I am starting to get things lined up in my mind and soon will be doing it in real time. Can hardly wait for Wednesday for another ultrasound which will hopefully be the last.

40 days or less-WOW!

I am started to get excited and a little nervous. I can't wait to meet Anna face to face. I have had a lower backache for the past week. At night, I just want a long back rub. Sometimes I have leg aches too. She has been jabbing me hard and it hurts. But I am glad she is still moving around.

I wrote a little list of things needed and got the car seat and will hopefully get the stroller on Saturday (getting off of Craigslist). The little things I will probably get at the end of the month.

When I say I have 6 weeks left it seems a little long but for some reason when I say 40 days is seems quicker. Odd I know.

And now EVERYONE asks when I am due. LOL

Another dummy check yesterday-33 wks

I had the routine weight, blood pressure, sample, belly measurement and heart beat check (160 bpm). I am measuring small but that is not usual for me. I usually catch up or measure small on the outside and baby is fine on the inside. I have another ultrasound in 2 weeks, which hopefully will be the last.

It's hard to believe after the next appointment, I will start going every week. Also, I will start the internal checks too.

Anna has been really active lately. Sometimes it hurts. I don't know if she is pushing out her heel or fist but ouch! I think she has turned (fingers crossed). She had hiccups the other night and again I felt it in the lower part of my belly.

My lower belly has been sore the past week and I have been tired. My hips are sore in the morning too. I am feeling like a BIG whale. It is hot outside and very humid which probably doesn't help. I feel out of breath after climbing lots of stairs. Ugh, I am out of shape. I really miss the water aerobics. I took the class with every pregnancy except for this one. =(

Yesterday and today I have had some weird tingling/pain in my lower belly/pelvic area. Who knows? I hope its her head hitting my pelvic area in the wrong way???

We still haven't decided the middle name or should I say I haven't. Jeremy has his mind set on Joy. I still don't know if I love it? I even had my first dream about it. In my dream, Anna arrived and my mom made a artsy picture with the initials AJ. I got upset said, "Mom, I don't know if that is the middle name?". I saw Anna in the dream and she was long and had dark hair.

I told Jeremy about the dream and he said, "See its a sign." LOL
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Sore

So over the weekend my lower belly really hurt. It was so sore. I bet Anna was growing. My hips have hurt today and yesterday. I have started to get up several times in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. As my sister says its all about preparing me to get up with the baby several times. I am getting uncomfortable and feeling big. I know I still have a way to go. Trying to savor the end.

Another Dr apt

Nothing exciting just the routine: sample, weight check, blood pressure, heart beat (160 bpm) and measurement. Everything is good. Today it is super hot outside. I am feeling very BIG and tired. I am hoping that Anna is turning because she does these weird side ways things. The past two days she sometimes seems like she is stretching sideways because my stomach is stretched funny. Also I have been having a lot more kicks (or so I hope) higher. Hopefully its not her fist. She really likes the left side. Next apt in 2 weeks. Ultrasound in 4 weeks.

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Mommy, Daddy, and Anna

These pics were taken on our Anniversary and I was 28 wks along.

30 wks

I can hardly believe that in 10 wks or less, I will be holding Anna. I can tell its getting closer. My lower back is starting to hurt more especially in the evening if I have had a long day. My feet have started getting sore too. It probably doesn't help that it is sooo HOT outside too.

The other bad thing is I am starting to get leg cramps or maybe I should say charlie horses in my legs. I can get it so bad in the middle of the night that when I first wake up in the morning I have to limp on the leg that got the cramp. I am going to try more calcium and see if that will help. I got them when I was pregnant with the others too.

Anna is moving like crazy. Once in a while she jabs me and it gets uncomfortable.

Doppler

I forgot to post this video clip of Anna's heartbeat.

Another ultrasound and dr apt-29 wks

The ultrasound was really neat. I got to see the heart working and all its chambers. Heartbeat was 157 bpm. Anna opened and closed her mouth and even showed us her tongue. She is butt down (which isn't good) but she still has time to turn. Micah was the same way and he turned. Hopefully she follows suit. The tech kept saying over and over how she was rolled into a tiny ball. She had her foot on her head. What a funny site. Also for the first time we saw hair on her head. I have never seen that on an ultrasound before. But today you could actually see hair everywhere. She looked like a baby chick.
Well that answers one of our questions, she won't be a blonde. (I didn't have the heart to tell the boys this because they keep saying what kind of hair she will have. Of course Caleb says blonde like him and Micah says brown like him. Hmmm...brown or red hair?????

Everything is looking good. Hematoma is completely gone and placenta is in the right place and the cord isn't around her neck anymore. Whew! She still is measuring small, a week behind. But tech said she is still growing and has changed from last ultrasound. I am not worried because my other kids measured small at this point. I remember with Micah, Dr was really concerned. But with the other kiddos I caught up in the end. So I am just praying and hoping that's the case for Anna.

The other thing is she hasn't turned yet, the little stinker. She is butt down and tech said she is very pushed down. So I get another ultrasound in 6 wks to see if she has turned. Micah was the same at this point so again, hoping she turns. Got the mini talk about what will happen if she doesn't turn. I don't want a c-section but will if necessary. I googled natural ways to get the baby to turn. So I guess I will try some of the normal sounding ones. I am not too concerned yet.

On the good note, I am off all my restrictions. Whoot-whoot! ;) Dr just said watch myself and if I can't do something or don't want to then to follow my gut. Got results back on diabetes test and it was normal. (knew it would be :) I go back in 2 wks. 120 3/4

27 weeks-Dr appointment

Today was the glucose test day. I managed to drink all the yucky orange stuff without gagging. I am happy it is the last time I have to drink it; however, a little sad about it too. Ugh, the pregnancy hormones.

Dr was in a hurry today because he had to assist in an emergency C-section. Heartbeat was 152 bpm. I got measured with the tape measure on the belly today for the first time. It was 27 which is said is okay but a little on the small side. I KNOW I will make up for it in the end. I always do or should I say I have in my other 3 pregnancies.

Got my blood draw and OUCH! The first nurse was awful and keep turning the needle in circles because she wasn't getting anything. I don't think she got my vein. I have never had any problems with people not being able to get my blood. Thankfully she got another nurse who basically forcefully, jabbed the needle in my other arm. I don't want them doing any more blood draws on me. I will ask for another nurse.

Next apt in 2 wks and hopefully final ultrasound. Again that's exciting and sad at the same time.
I can't believe I am already gonna start going every 2 wks. This pregnancy is flying by.

Anna is moving a ton now and you can really see her move from the outside. I know she is getting stronger and bigger because I can really feel the kicks now. 119 1/4

Down to double digits

It's hard to believe, that there is 98 days give or take. Soon I will be entering my 3rd trimester. Anna has been moving a ton more or maybe its just that she is bigger now, so I feel it more. You can watch her move from the outside which is neat.

I have been have some back aches and some braxton hicks. Trying to make sure I am drinking enough water. But overall feeling pretty good. Lately I have been feeling big and belly is starting to feel HEAVY.

People are actually noticing I am pregnant now. It's about time. I need to take another pic because I have grown a lot lately.

Some progress

So we got the list of 20 names down to a handful now. Hoping as the time goes by we can have it narrowed down to two. Anna you are one special girl and much thought is going into your middle name.

Still no middle name

I don't know why but we are having a hard time. I will find one I like and Jeremy hates it or vice-versa. Part of the problem is some things just don't sound right with our last name. Then you have the would be initials that could cause a problem. I know of a guy who had P.M.S which I wondered did his parents not think.

Some people say I over analyze or read into things. Which maybe I do. Hoping in time we can come up the the perfect middle name we both love. We have 100 days give or take to decide.

Good News

I had another dr appointment today. First, I had another ultrasound which went well. This time we got to see her face and it was sweet we even saw her opening and closing her mouth. We finally got some good face shots. However, she was a stinker because she had her legs closed and wouldn't open them. I wanted the tech to double check that she was a girl. Nope, wouldn't budge.

The good news is that the hematoma is almost gone. Just a tiny bit left. Also, the placenta moved up so it is no longer low lying. I was beyond ecstatic. However, I do still have some restrictions to be on the safe side as dr put it.

Baby is 1 pound and measuring in the --% (can't remember numbers) dr said that is on the small side. Which isn't out of the ordinary for me. I usually make up for it in the end. Well at least I did with my other 3 kids. Dr wants to be sure baby is okay so in 6 weeks I will get another ultrasound. Dr and tech both said the baby is really close up to the wall. The other thing was that the cord was wrapped around baby's neck. Dr isn't too concerned because it can move but we have to keep on eye on it. Everything else looked great and heartbeat was 162 bpm.

I go back in 4 wks for another check-up which includes the sugar test. YUCK!!! I hate the orange, sugary drink. Why couldn't it be another flavor?

For the most part I have been feeling pretty good. I have my days I just don't feel right but I think those are days she is really growing. 116 3/4

Halfway-20 wks today

It's hard to believe I am at the halfway point today. I am thrilled and blessed to have made it thus far. As one of my friends, said it best when you have a scare in pregnancy the pregnancy takes on a new meaning.

Anna has been moving a ton lately which is nice to know she is moving and growing. I can hardly wait to get another peek at her at my next Dr appointment.

We have been going over middle names or should I say, Mommy has been mulling over middle names. Daddy says we have plenty of time so why do we need to decide today. Mommy is a planner and likes to have things decided and done. LOL

So far we have narrowed it down to Joy (Daddy's favorite), Sophia (I just realized last night there is a young actress with this name, so probably rules it out), Christine/Kristine, Noelle (Mommy's favorite), and then we had others we ruled out which was Catherine/Katherine, Elizabeth, Mae, and Danielle. I jokingly said to Daddy maybe we should do Joelle to compromise. LOL

I guess we will do what we did with your brother, Caleb and wait until you are born to decide.

These past couple of days, I have had headaches. I don't know if its my sleeping (bad pillow or head placement), new vitamins (not as good as other brand I had before), or something else. I've tried to make sure that I am drinking enough so I don't get dehydrated. I use to get headaches when I was pregnant with your brother, Caleb.

I feel so bad because I haven't taken any pregnancy pictures. Time has just gotten away from me which is a horrible excuse. I did take one at 16 weeks but then realized the camera was on video and not picture. I really start to show until 13 weeks and then I had my big scare and kinda didn't know what to think or do. So today at 20 weeks, I made myself take a picture. I want you to know you are loved and very special to me. Even if you don't have as many pictures of you in my belly.

BIG ULTRASOUND

Today was an exciting day. I couldn't wait for my dr apt. The clock was my constant friend today. Daddy, your siblings, and I loaded up and headed to the dr's. The weather was strange today. It was cloudy and windy and then the sun would come out for just a bit and then disappear.

Arrived at the dr's office and Grandma (Sue) was there. I could barely wait until they called my name. The ultrasound tech was really sweet. We told her right away that we wanted to find out the gender. She asked me what I thought. I said girl but kinda doubted myself this past week. She laughed and said a mother's intuition is usually right. Most techs do all the other stuff first and gender last or in the middle. It wasn't but 2 minutes and she said "IT'S A GIRL" you were right, mommy. She then showed us your girly parts. I was worried that you might make us wait and not show us your stuff. LOL

Then she measured and look at others things. We saw and heard your heart beat at 159 bpm. We saw your feet, toes, legs, arms, hand, fingers, and spine. Your legs were crossed and the tech laughed and said your were already a lady. She tried to get your profile of your face but you wouldn't cooperate. She tried everything. The closest we got was a side with your ear and the back with your hand. Oh, dear is this proof you will be a stinker early on or a shy one?

The hematoma shrunk some which is good news. It went from a 5cm to a 3.5 cm. I was hoping it was gone altogether. Because I haven't spotted for 2 weeks. Other news was that I have a low lying placenta which is new for me. I didn't experience this with your siblings. So it is something that has to be watched. It can move which we are praying it does. It has to be at least 2.5 for a vaginal delivery. I really don't want a c-section. Dr Cote said there is still plenty of time for it to move. So on a good note, I get another peek at you in 4 weeks at the next apt I get another ultrasound.

I asked Micah how he felt about another sister. He gave a big smile and said he knew from the very beginning it was a girl. He said he was glad because, Julia will have a sister to play with. Then he said, "God answered our prayers." Caleb said he was a little sad because he thought Julia should have a baby brother too. However, he was a little happy too. Julia just kept saying baby over and over again.

I thought you were a girl just because I felt really nauseated like I did with your sister. And I craved junk food at the beginning. With your brothers, I craved healthy things. Too funny

So excited we can call you by name instead of just baby.
"ANNA "

Your middle name is still being worked on. I will post the story about your first name later.
After the dr apt we went Olive Garden and it was delicious. We ate there after your sister's ultrasound too. LOL

New Revelation

So yesterday it just hit me. I can't be in the constant state of worry. It isn't good for me or the baby. With Caleb I had a stressful pregnancy and he had major acid reflux and was a high needs baby. I don't want that again.

This is my last pregnancy so I NEED to enjoy it and not think of the what ifs. I decided that I need to let go and let God. I will enjoy each day and learn to be excited like my other pregnancies. If a bad time comes then I will handle it with the help of God, my family and my friends.

I am really excited about the ultrasound and keep counting down the days.

Up and then down

So yesterday I had another dr appointment that went well. Did the routine stuff-weight, urine sample, blood pressure, and listen to baby's heart beat. He kept me on all the restrictions until the "BIG" ultrasound which is scheduled for April 27th (I'll be 19 wks). I was excited about that because normally my dr likes to wait until 20 wks for it. Yeah, I know its only a week but 7 days less of waiting LOL

I have been feeling better and have had more energy which is nice. Spotting has slowed down and I thought I was almost done with it. BIG NOPE. However, I do get a break here and there. 3 days nothing and then heavy and then 2 days nothing and then spotting again. As I have read and heard, its a normal thing for the hematoma. I just like when I have nothing b/c then I seem not to worry as much.

Any time my stomach hurts I get nervous and sometimes its probably just stretching and growing. Today I am really sore and I just am trying to relax and think positive. It doesn't help that one of Jeremy's close co-worker's wife lost her baby this week and she was due in September too.

Last night, I had a nightmare about birth and the NICU. I couldn't go back to sleep. So today I am tired and I think overly hormonal. The cloudy , rainy weather doesn't help either. Each day I take one step at a time and thank the Lord when the day is done. Just as each week passes, I think, "Whew! I made it through and onto the next week".

I am excited and nervous about the ultrasound and can't believe its almost here.

Flutters

I think I have felt little flutters this week. It started on Sunday. Once or twice a day I think its you that I feel. Its great to know that you are moving. Also I am starting to get a noticeable belly. I NEED to take a picture and can hardly believe I haven't taken one yet. Shame on mommy.

Spot here and spot there, here a spot there a spot

So a little over a week has passed and I am still spotting. UGH, being pregnant you are suppose to get a break from pads and panty liners. Most days are light and I even had 2 days with no spotting. I thought I was done. However, after that I had 2 heavy days of spotting. Luckily it has been burgundy or brown blood. But I hate seeing it.

My doppler arrived yesterday! YIPPEE!!! So I have been able to check your heart beat which is awesome. Funny story-I was trying out the doppler for the first time and couldn't find you. Then Julia took over and found your heart beat right away. It is so great to hear it every day.

I have been really tired lately, so I think I might have my iron and thyroid checked again. I am tired of not being able to do everything to. It drives me nuts to have the floor not vacuumed every other day. I feel like I am a bother to everyone especially daddy.

I am trying to stay positive but some days its hard. I love you dearly and want you but I feel guilty when I can't carry your sister or do tons of things with your brothers. I just wanted my last pregnancy to be careful and wonderful. It has been stressful at times and I don't think I will be at peace until you are born close to your due date and in my arms -safe.

Miscarrying and pre-term labor are always in the back of my mind. I want you more than anything my sweet baby.

March 18th-rented a doppler

So since I was spotting, I decided I needed some reassurance. I spoke with some friends and did some internet research. I realized a doppler is what I needed. I went with renting because I hope in time I won't need it once you start kicking and I know you are okay.

I went with Stork Radio and just have to wait to get it.

Forgot to mention-I had to start wearing maternity pants.

March 16th-follow up dr visit

Grandma (my mom) and Aunt Amy (my sister) went to the apt with me. Dr Cote was very caring and answered some questions I had. He said we would watch things and go from there. The hematoma could go away on its own or stay around the whole pregnancy. He talked about the risks but then said well nothing could go wrong. I had some restrictions, no exercise, no lifting over 10 pounds (boy, is that hard to follow), and pelvic rest. He told me spotting could continue. It was a 50/50 deal. Weighed in at 104 and your heart rate was 169 bpm. And that's when the power went out. LOL It was out all the way to our house and was out for 3 hrs.

At night I googled hematoma in pregnancy and yikes most of the stories were all bad. I asked for prayers and then heard a couple of friend's positive stories.

March 15th-Trip to the ER

Took Micah to swimming lessons and of course Caleb and Julia went too. Afterward we went to the mall to look for some Pj's for everyone. Decided to eat lunch at the mall. We had a good time and mommy felt fine. However, I drove into the driveway and sneezed really hard. I thought I had drippled in my pants a tiny bit; however, I drove the car into the garage and I felt really wet. Like I was getting more wet by the minute. Got everyone out of the car and then I went to the bathroom. I was SHOCKED, TERRIFIED, and DEVASTATED. I had BRIGHT, red blood covering my entire underwear and it soaked through to my jeans, which were also soaked. I started to cry, thinking the worst. I thought I was losing you-my baby. I had been sick with a really bad cold, and coughed really hard all week. I also stopped being nauseous a couple days ago, which worried me.

I called my mom your grandma first. She said call my dr and put my feet up. Called dr office and got the receptionist who put me to the phone nurse. She wouldn't answer, it was lunch time. So I got the receptionist again and said I NEED to talk to someone its an emergency. She put me on hold and spoke with a dr who said go to the ER.

Tried to call Daddy but he was out to lunch. So I told them to tell him I went to the ER. My mom, your grandma got to our house pretty quickly. Your cousins watched your siblings while I went to the ER. Again it was lunch time so it seemed hardly anyone was around and it was slow. Got admitted and I felt like I was about to leak from my pad. Finally got to the room. I told the nurse I needed a pad. And yep, I was right the pad was full. The nurse said that wasn't good. Duh, I already knew that. Told her everything and then waited for what seemed like forever. Daddy finally called and arrived at the ER shortly after. He made it before the dr came.

Dr said lets do ultrasound first and go from there. I forgot to mention I had no cramping which was a good sign. My emotions were all over the place. I didn't want to lose you but I figured I couldn't do anything about it. It was strange because I had peace but yet I was anxious. I thought I felt a tiny flutter right before the dr came in with the little ultrasound machine. He stood in front of the machine so I couldn't see it. This was a scary moment of truth. Well to our great surprise you were still alive and had a heartbeat. That was a big sense of relief but now to find out why all this red bleeding.

Next, I was wheeled off to another room with a big ultrasound machine. The tech didn't say much which I knew she couldn't. I asked if you were on track for growth and she did say yes. I had to go to the bathroom really bad. So went back to the room and asked the nurse if I could go. She said yes and then I waited, and waited, and finally my mom went and got them again. I had to be wheeled out to the bathroom and they wanted a urine sample. (Dr wondered about infection).

Dr came back in and wanted to do a pelvic check to see if cervix was open or closed. So this was another big moment of truth. Thankfully it was still CLOSED. Dr left and eventually came back to tell me I had a hematoma that was 5cm. I never knew anything about a hematoma so he explained it a bit and then told me to do nothing the rest of the day and see my OB tomorrow.

March 9th-2nd Dr apt

It was mommy and your siblings at this apt. Weighed in at 104 1/2 and your heartbeat was 160 bpm. It took Dr Cote a while to find it which had me nervous at first but he found it. I think you are gonna be a stinker. Did urine sample and it came back fine.

February 9th-First Dr Apt

So we had the ultrasound first and got to see you. Thankfully there was only one baby in my stomach. Poor daddy kept having dreams it was 2 babies and that scared him. I kept saying there is only one baby. Did the other routine stuff, urine sample and weight check. I was a little dehydrated. So I need to make sure I am getting enough liquids. Other than that it was a good apt. Well I did get the "Maternal Age" chat.

It's been rough

So I haven't posted much because I am nauseous a lot. Nothing seems to help. I have tried almost everything including prescription medicine (Zofran) from the doctor. I have been tired off and on and will occasionally take naps in the afternoon. Once in a while my hips hurt when I wake up in the morning. In February, I started the lovely congestion and stuffed up, burgery nose. If this pregnancy goes anything like your sister, Julia. My nose won't clear up until you arrive.

I can hardly wait to find out if you are a boy or a girl.

January 9, 2011

Wow! What a day. At 1:15 am, I decided to take a pregnancy test. I wondered if I was pregnant. I was going to the bathroom a lot the last couple of days and I was tired but I didn't know for sure.
I didn't know if I should test or wait another day.

So I just decided to test and it was the LONGEST 3 minutes of waiting. I looked down at the test stick and did a double take. I just stared at it. WHAT! There are 2 lines. I am pregnant. I was BEYOND SHOCKED, a little numb, and shaking. The only thing was COMPLETE SHOCK.

I debated whether I should wake up Jeremy. I knew I should let him sleep but I needed to tell someone. So I woke him up. I said, "Jeremy wake up. Jeremy are you awake?" "I need you to look at this (pregnancy test)." I had a book light so he could see it. At first he couldn't see the 2nd line because it was so light. I was crying and he was ecstatic.

I have to let it all sink in. I am such a planner but I said a month ago, I was gonna leave it in God's hands. So I guess its a God thing I am pregnant now. No more wondering if we are gonna have a 4th. No more teeter/tottering back and forth. The pondering is over.

I had a dream back in May 2010, when I was holding a baby in my arms at the hospital, I said our family is now complete. =)

My other thoughts were, we need a mini-van and I want this baby (estimated 9/18) and Caleb (9/11) to have their own birthdays.