Wow! What a day. At 1:15 am, I decided to take a pregnancy test. I wondered if I was pregnant. I was going to the bathroom a lot the last couple of days and I was tired but I didn't know for sure.
I didn't know if I should test or wait another day.
So I just decided to test and it was the LONGEST 3 minutes of waiting. I looked down at the test stick and did a double take. I just stared at it. WHAT! There are 2 lines. I am pregnant. I was BEYOND SHOCKED, a little numb, and shaking. The only thing was COMPLETE SHOCK.
I debated whether I should wake up Jeremy. I knew I should let him sleep but I needed to tell someone. So I woke him up. I said, "Jeremy wake up. Jeremy are you awake?" "I need you to look at this (pregnancy test)." I had a book light so he could see it. At first he couldn't see the 2nd line because it was so light. I was crying and he was ecstatic.
I have to let it all sink in. I am such a planner but I said a month ago, I was gonna leave it in God's hands. So I guess its a God thing I am pregnant now. No more wondering if we are gonna have a 4th. No more teeter/tottering back and forth. The pondering is over.
I had a dream back in May 2010, when I was holding a baby in my arms at the hospital, I said our family is now complete. =)
My other thoughts were, we need a mini-van and I want this baby (estimated 9/18) and Caleb (9/11) to have their own birthdays.
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