Up and then down

So yesterday I had another dr appointment that went well. Did the routine stuff-weight, urine sample, blood pressure, and listen to baby's heart beat. He kept me on all the restrictions until the "BIG" ultrasound which is scheduled for April 27th (I'll be 19 wks). I was excited about that because normally my dr likes to wait until 20 wks for it. Yeah, I know its only a week but 7 days less of waiting LOL

I have been feeling better and have had more energy which is nice. Spotting has slowed down and I thought I was almost done with it. BIG NOPE. However, I do get a break here and there. 3 days nothing and then heavy and then 2 days nothing and then spotting again. As I have read and heard, its a normal thing for the hematoma. I just like when I have nothing b/c then I seem not to worry as much.

Any time my stomach hurts I get nervous and sometimes its probably just stretching and growing. Today I am really sore and I just am trying to relax and think positive. It doesn't help that one of Jeremy's close co-worker's wife lost her baby this week and she was due in September too.

Last night, I had a nightmare about birth and the NICU. I couldn't go back to sleep. So today I am tired and I think overly hormonal. The cloudy , rainy weather doesn't help either. Each day I take one step at a time and thank the Lord when the day is done. Just as each week passes, I think, "Whew! I made it through and onto the next week".

I am excited and nervous about the ultrasound and can't believe its almost here.