Flutters

I think I have felt little flutters this week. It started on Sunday. Once or twice a day I think its you that I feel. Its great to know that you are moving. Also I am starting to get a noticeable belly. I NEED to take a picture and can hardly believe I haven't taken one yet. Shame on mommy.

Spot here and spot there, here a spot there a spot

So a little over a week has passed and I am still spotting. UGH, being pregnant you are suppose to get a break from pads and panty liners. Most days are light and I even had 2 days with no spotting. I thought I was done. However, after that I had 2 heavy days of spotting. Luckily it has been burgundy or brown blood. But I hate seeing it.

My doppler arrived yesterday! YIPPEE!!! So I have been able to check your heart beat which is awesome. Funny story-I was trying out the doppler for the first time and couldn't find you. Then Julia took over and found your heart beat right away. It is so great to hear it every day.

I have been really tired lately, so I think I might have my iron and thyroid checked again. I am tired of not being able to do everything to. It drives me nuts to have the floor not vacuumed every other day. I feel like I am a bother to everyone especially daddy.

I am trying to stay positive but some days its hard. I love you dearly and want you but I feel guilty when I can't carry your sister or do tons of things with your brothers. I just wanted my last pregnancy to be careful and wonderful. It has been stressful at times and I don't think I will be at peace until you are born close to your due date and in my arms -safe.

Miscarrying and pre-term labor are always in the back of my mind. I want you more than anything my sweet baby.

March 18th-rented a doppler

So since I was spotting, I decided I needed some reassurance. I spoke with some friends and did some internet research. I realized a doppler is what I needed. I went with renting because I hope in time I won't need it once you start kicking and I know you are okay.

I went with Stork Radio and just have to wait to get it.

Forgot to mention-I had to start wearing maternity pants.

March 16th-follow up dr visit

Grandma (my mom) and Aunt Amy (my sister) went to the apt with me. Dr Cote was very caring and answered some questions I had. He said we would watch things and go from there. The hematoma could go away on its own or stay around the whole pregnancy. He talked about the risks but then said well nothing could go wrong. I had some restrictions, no exercise, no lifting over 10 pounds (boy, is that hard to follow), and pelvic rest. He told me spotting could continue. It was a 50/50 deal. Weighed in at 104 and your heart rate was 169 bpm. And that's when the power went out. LOL It was out all the way to our house and was out for 3 hrs.

At night I googled hematoma in pregnancy and yikes most of the stories were all bad. I asked for prayers and then heard a couple of friend's positive stories.

March 15th-Trip to the ER

Took Micah to swimming lessons and of course Caleb and Julia went too. Afterward we went to the mall to look for some Pj's for everyone. Decided to eat lunch at the mall. We had a good time and mommy felt fine. However, I drove into the driveway and sneezed really hard. I thought I had drippled in my pants a tiny bit; however, I drove the car into the garage and I felt really wet. Like I was getting more wet by the minute. Got everyone out of the car and then I went to the bathroom. I was SHOCKED, TERRIFIED, and DEVASTATED. I had BRIGHT, red blood covering my entire underwear and it soaked through to my jeans, which were also soaked. I started to cry, thinking the worst. I thought I was losing you-my baby. I had been sick with a really bad cold, and coughed really hard all week. I also stopped being nauseous a couple days ago, which worried me.

I called my mom your grandma first. She said call my dr and put my feet up. Called dr office and got the receptionist who put me to the phone nurse. She wouldn't answer, it was lunch time. So I got the receptionist again and said I NEED to talk to someone its an emergency. She put me on hold and spoke with a dr who said go to the ER.

Tried to call Daddy but he was out to lunch. So I told them to tell him I went to the ER. My mom, your grandma got to our house pretty quickly. Your cousins watched your siblings while I went to the ER. Again it was lunch time so it seemed hardly anyone was around and it was slow. Got admitted and I felt like I was about to leak from my pad. Finally got to the room. I told the nurse I needed a pad. And yep, I was right the pad was full. The nurse said that wasn't good. Duh, I already knew that. Told her everything and then waited for what seemed like forever. Daddy finally called and arrived at the ER shortly after. He made it before the dr came.

Dr said lets do ultrasound first and go from there. I forgot to mention I had no cramping which was a good sign. My emotions were all over the place. I didn't want to lose you but I figured I couldn't do anything about it. It was strange because I had peace but yet I was anxious. I thought I felt a tiny flutter right before the dr came in with the little ultrasound machine. He stood in front of the machine so I couldn't see it. This was a scary moment of truth. Well to our great surprise you were still alive and had a heartbeat. That was a big sense of relief but now to find out why all this red bleeding.

Next, I was wheeled off to another room with a big ultrasound machine. The tech didn't say much which I knew she couldn't. I asked if you were on track for growth and she did say yes. I had to go to the bathroom really bad. So went back to the room and asked the nurse if I could go. She said yes and then I waited, and waited, and finally my mom went and got them again. I had to be wheeled out to the bathroom and they wanted a urine sample. (Dr wondered about infection).

Dr came back in and wanted to do a pelvic check to see if cervix was open or closed. So this was another big moment of truth. Thankfully it was still CLOSED. Dr left and eventually came back to tell me I had a hematoma that was 5cm. I never knew anything about a hematoma so he explained it a bit and then told me to do nothing the rest of the day and see my OB tomorrow.

March 9th-2nd Dr apt

It was mommy and your siblings at this apt. Weighed in at 104 1/2 and your heartbeat was 160 bpm. It took Dr Cote a while to find it which had me nervous at first but he found it. I think you are gonna be a stinker. Did urine sample and it came back fine.

February 9th-First Dr Apt

So we had the ultrasound first and got to see you. Thankfully there was only one baby in my stomach. Poor daddy kept having dreams it was 2 babies and that scared him. I kept saying there is only one baby. Did the other routine stuff, urine sample and weight check. I was a little dehydrated. So I need to make sure I am getting enough liquids. Other than that it was a good apt. Well I did get the "Maternal Age" chat.